2014
04/09

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Happy Birthday Nate!

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I was feeling compelled to write a blog today because today is a very special day. I am celebrating because on this day 32 years ago my talented, funny, caring, smart husband was born. There is no other person that can make me as happy (and as mad) as this man. He is greatness. He is a wonderful husband and father and if you are lucky enough to call him a friend he is one of the most loyal and giving friends. So if you happen to run into Nate today, wish him a Happy Birthday because he completely deserves it!

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And I always thought it was so funny that Owen is always kissing Baeya’s forehead, guess I know who he gets it from…

 

 

 

2014
01/29

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My Issues are starting to show

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My husband, if ever asked what my “issues” are, would probably say being stubborn and a picky eater (He used to say I eat like a 2nd grader). I have recently decided that your family and old friends are the worst at locking you into a place that you can’t get out of. I do it too, I think everyone does to a certain extent. I feel completely different now then when I was a teenager. I can’t even begin to explain the differences from then and now. I probably still might be considered a picky eater but compared to my jr. high self I have grown immensely (Nate Fritzel;). And btw-I would not list either one of these as a personal issue.

But my issues are starting to show, with a flashing arrow these days and it’s flashing at my kid, what an eye opener that is. (Insert eye roll and head shake here) Luckily Baeya is not there yet, but I’m sure it’s coming. Poor kids. I tend to have a lot of…we’ll call it “passion” for things. And Owen is proving to be a pretty passionate kid. We potty trained recently and were doing really good until last week. Apparently he only wants me to take him potty these days. He did not go to the bathroom all day yesterday at school. I dropped him off at 9 and picked him up at 2. I am hoping this is a passing phase. Ok ok my “passion” might be the same issue that Nate calls “stubborn”.

Back to this issues part…

After working at a mental health hospital, and the holidays spent with family, I am starting to think about how difficult it is to change a person’s views about you. Even though I feel like I am a completely different person from childhood to now; if I am around my brother, sister, and parents, I can go back to that old self in about 2.8 seconds. You just fall into old habits so easily. Social Work is a lot of working with people to help them change behaviors that they want to change. It seems daunting at first but once there is a change established it turns into “doable” until… You go back to the old rituals. Your living space, your family, old friends, job, etc. In a lot of cases those people may encourage the old behavior because that is familiar, or in some cases, they just expect it. I never make new years resolutions. I find that if I were to make a big declaration I would never follow through, but I am pressing on for minor changes. I know that any goal I have for myself is nothing compared to God’s goal for me. I am apart of a new bible study that started last week. This is one of the passages that I read.

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brother and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:12-15

Little by little we can whittle away those views of us, even though I know I shouldn’t care, I want others to see the “updated” version of me. I want others to see the person I have become and not the younger version of me. (Although I wouldn’t mind looking like the younger version;)

Talking to the awesome women in my bible study we were discussing how the old issues start creeping up and how hard it is not to look back or resort to old ways but no declarations from me. I will continue on and hopefully the “positive” days will outnumber the “old issue” days. We’ll see.

 

 

 

2014
01/25

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Reflections

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Last year I shared with everyone that I had a bit of a cancer scare in Hiccup in the Road. I have a tendency to treat things like they are no big deal even when I am going through hard times. I have shared with many women from my bible studies about my “self-preservation gene” as I like to call it. You know the voice inside that keeps saying, “oh Jackie don’t be dramatic, I am sure it’s no big deal”. And later says, “Oh that wasn’t that difficult, others go through much worse.” I almost feel guilty talking about how hard those couple of weeks were because I didn’t have to deal with the opposite outcome. But those few weeks make the beginning of this year so much sweeter. I probably would not even reflect on that time if I didn’t have a blog to document these moments for me. So I will celebrate with my beautiful family because we have been a family of four for 3 months. We were accepted into the adoption program at Buckner in January of last year and then immediately thought we would have to put it on hold due to the biopsy. Instead, we got good news and were able to adopt Baeya Hope a little over 10 months later. The exact timeline of when we decided to have a baby to the point that we were blessed with Owen.  So even though I am very thankful for the ”self-preservation gene” I am setting it aside and thinking about how different life could have been this past year and how thankful I am that it turned out how it did. Baeya was meant to be a part of this family from the beginning. I am overwhelmed with gratitude and love for the way Owen has stepped into the big brother role. He is so helpful, kind, and loving to “Ms. Baeya” as he lovingly refers to her. He has completely shocked me on how much he loved her from the beginning. Any pics that I may post of his giving kisses to Baeya are completely unprompted. If you had told me that Nate and I would have a daughter and be starting a church by the beginning of 2014 I would have thought you were crazy. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought that my life would be so fulfilling. Not sure that 2014 could possibly top 2013 but I am keeping an open mind, you never know what God has in store.

 

 

 

 

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2014
01/21

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Scariest Night

In a previous post I mentioned that we finally were able to celebrate Christmas with my family. I have one brother who lives in Moore, Ok and one sister in Austin. So that means they both get to come here for Christmas. My parents live about 5 miles from us so it works great (that is, it works great for me). This year my brother and his family stayed with me and my sis’ fam stayed with my parents. When we left my parents house Saturday we were all very tired so I went to bed shortly after getting both kids to bed. I heard my brother’s family come to our house shortly after that.
Suddenly I am woken up by someone continuously ringing my doorbell. Please note that when I sleep, I sleep like a kid on melatonin. So to say I was a bit confused is the understatement of my year (aka the past 27 days). Which is really funny because in that very moment I couldn’t get my light sleeper husband to wake up. I went around the bed and noticed that my husbands phone was ringing and it was my brother. He hung up before I could answer so I ran to the door assuming it was him trying to get in. I was feeling very relieved that it was just my brother at the door when I started thinking its weird that he got locked out since I had heard him come home already. As I approached the door with my hand ready to unlock the deadbolt I look through the peephole and there is no one there. Weird right. So instead of opening the door (thank goodness) I walked back over to my bedroom where Nate had finally woken up and said Brian isn’t at the door. Then I hear my brothers voice from upstairs say, “DO NOT OPEN THE DOOR”. My brother then comes downstairs and says that there is someone outside that has been beating on our door for several minutes. My bother and his wife were upstairs watching out the window. Nate immediately calls the police and we start waiting. About 5 mins after Nate gets off the phone, Nikki (sis-in-law) says he is walking down the street. Apparently it was a male average to tall with dark hair. After talking more while waiting on the police Nate and I had slept through several minutes of this man beating on our door to the point of the front of the house shaking. We then spoke with a policeman for about 3 mins. He left to look for the man on foot but as far as we know came up with nothing.

After a facebook message to our community page we found out that apparently we were not the only house that this guy tried. Our new neighbors spoke with the guy who admitted to going to a party, being left by his friends, and wanting a ride home. Not sure how beating on people’s doors would get him a ride home unless he wanted a ride in a cop car, but my neighbor did say he reeked of alcohol.

For the past few weeks I have been a tad nervous. Nate went out of town a week ago and I stayed at my mom’s house one of the nights. Once your space has been invaded it takes a while to feel right again. Things are, by the way, feeling normal again, but I will definitely be triple checking my doors for a while.

2013
12/13

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Cousins!

My sister, Kristin had a baby girl last month and her name is Madeline (Maddie) June (named after our Grandmother). So of course, we drove down to Austin immediately on hearing she was in labor.
She is beautiful and looks very similar to her big sis, with a tan like her Italian father. We are even more excited because Maddie and Baeya are almost exactly 6 weeks apart. Owen and Ella (the older siblings) are 10 months apart and couldn’t love each other more. So much that they want to be around one another constantly and don’t stop bickering the whole time they are together. It may be more of a brother/sister type relationship. Which brings the cousin number to 3 boys and 4 girls, as I have previously mentioned my brothers children in Meeting Baby Casen we were very excited about this Christmas due to all the kiddos. Baby Casen is now 9 months, his older brother, Brody is the best at letting Owen wrestle him and their older sister, Aubree is the best little mama to all of the tykes. I think after this Christmas my parents are going to try and convince us to cap it at 7 grand kids. We’ll see if that happens…

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We were not able to celebrate until just this past weekend, but we had lots of fun with all the kids. We also got to have a photo shoot so more pics to come.

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